ALEXANDRIA'S ALCHEMY
ALEXANDRIA'S ALCHEMY
It’s funny how we don’t really change that much from childhood. It’s almost as if we were already wired to be who we are. Any habit, hobby, or desire that wasn’t persuaded out of us due to shame tends to stay the same. Lately, I’ve been very conscious of how much I haven’t changed. Whether it’s the desire to participate in performing arts, my love for metaphysics, or gaming— not much has changed. The only thing that has changed is my awareness and consciousness. And of course, anything you do for a prolonged period of time, you will get better at. With this awareness, I’ve been able to look at my patterns with a deeper understanding.
Anyway, lately, I’ve been finding myself in dance studios. I stopped dancing when I was a kid because I goofed off one good time, and my mom deaded it. Lol. I don’t blame her—she was driving far and paying good money. Dancing now feels like a challenge of moving my body with intention while also looking good as I dance to what I want to dance to. Some of the new people I’ve met have come with me, and it’s really fun to see them open up as well. I’ve had a knack for doing very different things on first “friendship” dates, like going to mindfulness classes, trying new reformer classes, or dancing together. That always beats drinks and food.
Same with singing. As I get older, my voice is stronger, my attention to detail is much better, and I have more awareness of my range. I’ve always loved to sing, but I wasn’t always decent. Reflecting on how far I’ve come and being able to get in that zone makes me feel great. I believe it will be a lifelong hobby.
My super extra cover of MacArthur Park by the underrated disco goddess, Donna Summer. I loved singing Donna Summer as a teen.
My daughter getting older has also offered my inner child a different type of companionship. She loves to dance, sing, and dress up. She also has a love for spooky and supernatural things (I wonder how that happened). Recently, I put on some music from the ’90s—basically from when I was around her age—and we danced all around. She loved it. Now she keeps asking me to play “Barbie Girl” by Aqua.
I also found this website with archived games from when I was a kid—all the Barbie, Bratz, and My Scene games were on there. We’ve been playing them together for the past week, and she loves it. They are such a throwback. I find myself remembering all of the music, articles of clothing, and options. She’s only two, but she doesn’t play about matching her outfits, accessorizing, and doing her nails (I also wonder how that happened). One thing I love is that I am able to be very attentive and play with her. I don’t remember being played with when it came to those games. Speaking of those games, I see why I have a shopping addiction and obsession with home décor. All those games were about beauty treatments, shopping, and home décor. Some serious programming there.
Even when it comes to this blog, I’ve always loved writing. My love for writing started on online forums where I wrote fan fiction. Speaking of fan fiction, I was listening to B5 the other day (mind you, it had been years) and remembered how I named my book after a song I loved by them called “I Must Love Drama.” It’s funny how my B5 fangirl days as a tween snowballed into my passion for writing and subsequently caused me to name my book after that song. It’s also interesting that way back when Patrick, the lead singer, and I used to talk, I mentioned that that song was their “Heartbreak Hotel.” I thought it was inspired by the Jacksons. He asked the producer, but it was so obvious. And my Must Love Drama novel started out as an MJ fan fiction. Anyway, random interconnectedness there.
It’s even interesting that I am STILL blogging now—from my days guest blogging for THE Galore Magazine and other publications to my The Worst Advice blog I started at 20 years old that would inspire and piss people off.
Another thing I loved as a kid was simulation games. I used to play The Sims for hours as a kid—from the original all the way up to Sims 4, which I took back up after years when I was pregnant because there wasn’t much else to do while battling nausea every day. Yesterday, I remembered a simulation game that was announced a while ago. I thought of it and, coincidentally, the release date was today! After making sure I had the right CPU and using my hubby’s gaming laptop, I finally downloaded it and got it to work. I played it for a bit and just laughed at the irony. The original Sims came out in 2000, and here I am playing the “next big” simulation game in 2025.
My new InZoi I made today. I tried my best to make her look like me.
I forgot to mention that I’ve always loved digital design. In elementary school, my friends would ask me to customize their MySpace pages. Here I am, 20 years later, still creating websites and graphic designs for myself and others. When I was about 11, my MySpace handle was “High Maintenance Queen.” Even as a child, I was into luxury goods. I wanted Chanel, Louis Vuitton, Dior, Juicy Couture, Miu Miu, Balmain and so on. Now, I have a dope designer collection and call myself “High Caliber.”
On the metaphysical side, I remember discovering blog posts about the afterlife, reincarnation, and past lives. I was also drawn to reading about occult figures like Edgar Cayce and exploring horoscopes as a kid.
Some things never change. I am actually enjoying being an adult and living out my school-age desires. Childish or not, it feels freaking great.
How To Remain Childish
There’s something magical about staying connected to your inner child. What makes you feel alive, playful, and genuinely yourself? For fulfillment, continue nurturing your inner child through activities that spark joy and creativity:
Revisit Your Childhood Passions
Think back to the things that made your heart race when you were a kid—whether it was dancing, singing, playing video games, or creating stories. Reignite that passion by carving out time to indulge in those hobbies again. Dance to your favorite songs, sing at the top of your lungs, or lose yourself in a simulation game you used to love.
Find Playful Movement
Physical activities that feel more like play than exercise are perfect for reconnecting with your inner child. Whether it’s dancing in your living room, taking a dance class, or experimenting with a new fitness trend like aerial yoga or a trampoline workout, focus on moving your body in ways that feel joyful and free.
Make Time for Creativity
Remember how easily you used to get lost in a creative project as a kid? Whether it was drawing, crafting, writing fan fiction, or making up stories, creativity has always been a gateway to your most authentic self. Consider picking up that paintbrush again, journaling your thoughts, or experimenting with creative writing.
Introduce Your Passions to Your Kids (or Younger Family Members)
One of the most heartwarming ways to keep your inner child alive is to share your childhood favorites with the next generation. Show your kids or younger relatives your favorite games, movies, or songs from your youth. Watching them light up the same way you did can feel like reliving those memories all over again.
Try New Experiences
Your inner child thrives on curiosity and excitement, so never stop seeking new experiences. Whether it’s trying a new hobby, exploring a different genre of music, or learning a new skill, keep that adventurous spirit alive. Take friends along for the ride and encourage them to step out of their comfort zones, too.
Give Yourself Permission to Be Playful
Society often pressures us to be serious and “put together,” but it’s okay to embrace your playful side. Let go of perfectionism and allow yourself to be spontaneous and silly. Whether it’s dancing like no one’s watching or laughing at cheesy jokes, give yourself the freedom to be lighthearted.
It’s funny how we don’t really change that much from childhood. It’s almost as if we were already wired to be who we are. Any habit, hobby, or desire that wasn’t persuaded out of us due to shame tends to stay the same. Lately, I’ve been very conscious of how much I haven’t changed. Whether it’s the desire to participate in performing arts, my love for metaphysics, or gaming— not much has changed. The only thing that has changed is my awareness and consciousness. And of course, anything you do for a prolonged period of time, you will get better at. With this awareness, I’ve been able to look at my patterns with a deeper understanding.
Anyway, lately, I’ve been finding myself in dance studios. I stopped dancing when I was a kid because I goofed off one good time, and my mom deaded it. Lol. I don’t blame her—she was driving far and paying good money. Dancing now feels like a challenge of moving my body with intention while also looking good as I dance to what I want to dance to. Some of the new people I’ve met have come with me, and it’s really fun to see them open up as well. I’ve had a knack for doing very different things on first “friendship” dates, like going to mindfulness classes, trying new reformer classes, or dancing together. That always beats drinks and food.
Same with singing. As I get older, my voice is stronger, my attention to detail is much better, and I have more awareness of my range. I’ve always loved to sing, but I wasn’t always decent. Reflecting on how far I’ve come and being able to get in that zone makes me feel great. I believe it will be a lifelong hobby.
My super extra cover of MacArthur Park by the underrated disco goddess, Donna Summer. I loved singing Donna Summer as a teen.
My daughter getting older has also offered my inner child a different type of companionship. She loves to dance, sing, and dress up. She also has a love for spooky and supernatural things (I wonder how that happened). Recently, I put on some music from the ’90s—basically from when I was around her age—and we danced all around. She loved it. Now she keeps asking me to play “Barbie Girl” by Aqua.
I also found this website with archived games from when I was a kid—all the Barbie, Bratz, and My Scene games were on there. We’ve been playing them together for the past week, and she loves it. They are such a throwback. I find myself remembering all of the music, articles of clothing, and options. She’s only two, but she doesn’t play about matching her outfits, accessorizing, and doing her nails (I also wonder how that happened). One thing I love is that I am able to be very attentive and play with her. I don’t remember being played with when it came to those games. Speaking of those games, I see why I have a shopping addiction and obsession with home décor. All those games were about beauty treatments, shopping, and home décor. Some serious programming there.
Even when it comes to this blog, I’ve always loved writing. My love for writing started on online forums where I wrote fan fiction. Speaking of fan fiction, I was listening to B5 the other day (mind you, it had been years) and remembered how I named my book after a song I loved by them called “I Must Love Drama.” It’s funny how my B5 fangirl days as a tween snowballed into my passion for writing and subsequently caused me to name my book after that song. It’s also interesting that way back when Patrick, the lead singer, and I used to talk, I mentioned that that song was their “Heartbreak Hotel.” I thought it was inspired by the Jacksons. He asked the producer, but it was so obvious. And my Must Love Drama novel started out as an MJ fan fiction. Anyway, random interconnectedness there.
It’s even interesting that I am STILL blogging now—from my days guest blogging for THE Galore Magazine and other publications to my The Worst Advice blog I started at 20 years old that would inspire and piss people off.
Another thing I loved as a kid was simulation games. I used to play The Sims for hours as a kid—from the original all the way up to Sims 4, which I took back up after years when I was pregnant because there wasn’t much else to do while battling nausea every day. Yesterday, I remembered a simulation game that was announced a while ago. I thought of it and, coincidentally, the release date was today! After making sure I had the right CPU and using my hubby’s gaming laptop, I finally downloaded it and got it to work. I played it for a bit and just laughed at the irony. The original Sims came out in 2000, and here I am playing the “next big” simulation game in 2025.
My new InZoi I made today. I tried my best to make her look like me.
I forgot to mention that I’ve always loved digital design. In elementary school, my friends would ask me to customize their MySpace pages. Here I am, 20 years later, still creating websites and graphic designs for myself and others. When I was about 11, my MySpace handle was “High Maintenance Queen.” Even as a child, I was into luxury goods. I wanted Chanel, Louis Vuitton, Dior, Juicy Couture, Miu Miu, Balmain and so on. Now, I have a dope designer collection and call myself “High Caliber.”
On the metaphysical side, I remember discovering blog posts about the afterlife, reincarnation, and past lives. I was also drawn to reading about occult figures like Edgar Cayce and exploring horoscopes as a kid.
Some things never change. I am actually enjoying being an adult and living out my school-age desires. Childish or not, it feels freaking great.
How To Remain Childish
There’s something magical about staying connected to your inner child. What makes you feel alive, playful, and genuinely yourself? For fulfillment, continue nurturing your inner child through activities that spark joy and creativity:
Revisit Your Childhood Passions
Think back to the things that made your heart race when you were a kid—whether it was dancing, singing, playing video games, or creating stories. Reignite that passion by carving out time to indulge in those hobbies again. Dance to your favorite songs, sing at the top of your lungs, or lose yourself in a simulation game you used to love.
Find Playful Movement
Physical activities that feel more like play than exercise are perfect for reconnecting with your inner child. Whether it’s dancing in your living room, taking a dance class, or experimenting with a new fitness trend like aerial yoga or a trampoline workout, focus on moving your body in ways that feel joyful and free.
Make Time for Creativity
Remember how easily you used to get lost in a creative project as a kid? Whether it was drawing, crafting, writing fan fiction, or making up stories, creativity has always been a gateway to your most authentic self. Consider picking up that paintbrush again, journaling your thoughts, or experimenting with creative writing.
Introduce Your Passions to Your Kids (or Younger Family Members)
One of the most heartwarming ways to keep your inner child alive is to share your childhood favorites with the next generation. Show your kids or younger relatives your favorite games, movies, or songs from your youth. Watching them light up the same way you did can feel like reliving those memories all over again.
Try New Experiences
Your inner child thrives on curiosity and excitement, so never stop seeking new experiences. Whether it’s trying a new hobby, exploring a different genre of music, or learning a new skill, keep that adventurous spirit alive. Take friends along for the ride and encourage them to step out of their comfort zones, too.
Give Yourself Permission to Be Playful
Society often pressures us to be serious and “put together,” but it’s okay to embrace your playful side. Let go of perfectionism and allow yourself to be spontaneous and silly. Whether it’s dancing like no one’s watching or laughing at cheesy jokes, give yourself the freedom to be lighthearted.